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"Were...were you often lonely as well?" I ask with profound unhappiness that blooms in the abyss of my heart at the thought of it.

"Yes, at times whenever my duties did not consume my time. But my loneliness ceased after a certain point in time."

"And when was that?"

"When you came into my life, Drahá. Growing up back at the castle I had not made any friends unlike Deimos but after I met you when I was fifteen that feeling of being alone vanished. Though you were merely a pup much younger than me by several years I found myself relishing in your company.

That lonesome feeling returned when I was nineteen when I left you behind for your safety and my sense of duty. And when I finally claimed you as mine never once did I ever feel lonely again for my female was always beside me through every trial and tribulation." He mutters feebly while dragging me closer to his side sharing his warmth with mine.

"And do you think that Tadeas will only ever be able to find such a bottomless connection with his female as you found with me?"

"Yes. I believe so but I do not want that for him, it does not matter if he can only ever make simulated connections and call them friends but it will give him strength in his time of need. I will make sure the pups here will never get to see his true essence until he becomes a juvenile for once they are all of age they will understand him."

"You have thought about his future so much," I whisper as my love for this beast of mine mounts above barriers to an unfathomable height.

"He is my flesh and blood. I do not want him to undergo my painful experiences and I want to make it more uncomplicated for him." Phobos has his acute eyes glued to my bare feet as he steers me towards the sunlit place in the centre of the woods where he has constructed our home. He is keenly watching my every step making sure that I do not trip or stumble on the way up. My protector.

"Tell me about this house."

"You will see it in a minute." He smiles widely ridiculing me for my impatience.

"I know but I want to hear it from you before seeing it for myself."

"The cottage is much bigger than what we currently live in. It has four rooms."

My surprised eyes widen at his words, how did this male of mine manage to build such a big home? "Four rooms? We do not need four rooms, Phobos."

"One is for the kitchen, one is for the both of us, the other two will be for Tadeas and the rest."

"The rest?" I ask frowning with puzzlement. What does he mean by this?

"I informed you before my female, I desire a large family. The rest would be the remainder of our pups."

"Goddess Phobos! Tadeas is not even a year old yet."

"I apologize for this but I truly wish for more. I want a...female." His hopeful eyes soften as he peers down at me his yearning to have more pups shown evidently in them.

"A female? I thought you would want more males so you can train them to be warriors and so on." I mumble beneath my breath.

"I do want more males but I do hope for a female as well. A female who would be a copy of you in every way, Theia. I wish for a little you."

"I do not think having a female is a good idea."

"Why so?" He questions curiosity shimmering in those blues of his.

"You would be overly protective, her brothers would be of no good as well I am sure of it. You would put our males in charge of safeguarding her and she would come complaining to me." I sigh wearily as though it is currently occurring and he lets out a loud hearty laugh that resonates all around us in waves that have me giggle. I love it when he laughs, I like hearing the delightful sound of it.

"That is true but you know that we do not shelter our females on our lands. She will be trained with her brothers she will be seen as equal in all ways except for being touched by another male than her own of course."

"And Tadeas, will you allow him to seek sexual gratification from breeders when he is of age."

"By the time he is of age the whores will be old and grey and I am sure he will find them to be distasteful unless he develops a liking for older females." He razzes gaining a sharp punch to his side from my elbow.

"I am being serious here. There shall undoubtedly be war at one point in time where there will be females who will make the choice to return here and be breeders."

"It depends on Tadeas and his beast, sometimes the urge for sexual relief is unbearable where one has no choice but to seek out a breeder. If my male is in physical pain-" I snarl with a fury that confines me and Phobos raises his right eyebrow in question.

"Then are you saying that you sought out breeders when you found yourself to be in this so-called physical pain?"

"Of course not, Draha. I could control myself quite well and my beast refused to be touched by another than you."

"Then since our male is your flesh and blood as you claimed, you will train him to control himself and his urges. He will save himself for his moon blessed as you did for me. I will never allow him to go seek relief from another female and you as his father and Alpha will make sure of it. Am I understood?"

"Theia I cannot promise such things-"

"Am I understood, Phobos?" There is finality in the tone of my voice showing him that he cannot argue with me on this no matter what.